You tell yourself that you are not afraid and that you have faith that all will be well. But the truth of the matter is, there is always that tiny little voice at the back of your mind that worries that this is the year that the dreadful disease comes back.
Exactly two years ago today, I sat with John in a little room, and listened as Dr. Ng told me that I had Invasive Ductal Carcinoma (IDC), confirming the awful news that I already knew with absolute certainty was coming. I had known the moment Dr. de Paredes and Dr. Ng pulled out the biopsy needle. The atmosphere in that room literally changed ... and I knew. I don't know how I made it through the days after that until they gave me the diagnosis, but I did. I pulled it from somewhere in me ... don't know where the strength came from, but it did.
Today that awful day is behind me. My mammogram came back with no abnormalities. Thank you God. I promise you that I will not squander my life.
