I am in an odd but happy place ... tomorrow I will be exactly halfway through my treatments. I don't have the words to describe how I am feeling!
It is a bit strange too because I sense I am entering a new phase of my treatment. I feel myself weakening ... it's harder to motivate myself now ... I have to almost force myself to exercise but I must keep at it! A weak body will weaken my spirit ... I know it will. I don't want to plunge into that darkness.
The bloating is constant now and not just the week after the TCH. It is so bizarre to see that chemo bloated belly where one didn't exist before. I have to eat small meals because normal size meals just make me miserable. Vegetables and fruits and meats are ok but starches seem to aggravate the bloating. It is about constant adjusting and adjusting ... I am a pretzel ... twist me this way and twist me that way ... I shall not break! Oops ... being a bit silly.
Getting to that time when I have to start eating lots of fiber and soups, but only after Saturday. On Saturday we get to celebrate our 23rd anniversary with lunch because too much food in the evening makes me miserable (see how this works? Adjust ... adjust).
Overall this has been a decent week with some days of just unexpected fatigue. Perhaps that had to do with having to sort through and launder all those bags of Sarah's clothes that are destined for Goodwill! I'm just kidding ... it's chemo fatigue.
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